Time to refocus again

I have to accept that I cannot be a goat-lady, a full-time mom to a 3 year old, a business owner with out-of-town weddings every weekend, all while rebuilding a disheveled house before the insurance inspector comes.

I’ve been down for a few days with an intense sore-throat virus complete with body-wracking aches. The doc asked me what was going on that would make me get so run down that I’d get sick. And then I realized that I am completely blowing it lately. Something had to give, and it was me. Changes need to be made. Starting with eating better food (again).

A big part of this epiphany about eating better came from reading the about me page of Angel Quintana, a holistic lifestyle mentor at the House of Vitalia this morning. She is the amazingly beautiful bride featured in Noa of Feather Love Photography‘s recent wedding on Green Wedding Shoes today. Check it out if you have a chance.

I used to eat good food, I used to have a quiet and simple life. I don’t want to be the mom that is too busy, too stressed all the time. I don’t want to be the lady that is stressed out by every bleat coming from the not-getting-enough-attention goats. I love my goats, but I’ve come to the conclusion that parting ways is the best path for both of us. This is not the summer for hiking in the high country with them.

This is the summer where I take Sadie to swim lessons, I go out of town on the weekends to shoot weddings, and I work on the new house in the middle of the week. I want to find joy in these projects, because they are important and they inspire me. Now and then I will manage to blog, and every day I will eat good food. Time to refocus again. All while giving myself a big hug and a break for blowing it, because that’s just part of being human. Let’s all give ourselves a break if we need one, let go, and refocus.

Photo by Allison Fairfield http://www.alliefairfieldphotographs.com/

July 6, 2012 - 2:38 PM

Janine - So lovely, so human.